I’m dead. My life is dead. Because my heart is dead. I will not pretend that I’m okay, because I’m not. I am so dead, so bad, so hurt. My heart is broken. But not that kind of broken that you can fix it. It’s broken forever. And no one, can stop my tears. They can’t because they aren’t the reason of my sadness. The reason of my sadness is the only one who can make me feel alive again. And it’s horrible how can you be so in love, that you are available to humiliate yourself just to have that person. And I can’t lie. I have humiliated myself in all that time. But I don’t regret it. Because I did it for love. And people say they are in love, without knowing what that means. But I know. Because since you gone, I became depressed, my mind just stoped working, and me, that person who said killing yourself is stupid, wants to die. I want to die. I want to die because of you. Because if I don’t have you, I don’t have any reason to stay alive. You, guys, can think I’m just a stupid teenager in love. So, maybe I am. But deeply in love. So deeply, it hurts. And one of my biggest fears, happened. And I can say to you, it is worst, so worst of what I imagined.
I can’t deny. I screamed, I fell, I implored to you. And I will do that over and over again. I’m not afraid of humiliate myself for you. Because being so in love like I am, it’s not humiliating. It’s something that happens only one time in your life. I will fight untill the end for you, you know our story didn’t finish, you know you still care about me and I will make you remember why you started.
And I will never know your reaction to this, but please, stop my pain, tell me it was only a horrible dream and kiss me over again. I can’t understand what I did wrong, why I am the one who is suffering, how can you say to me you love me and the next day make me feel like the whole time was just a stupid and big lie.
It’s horrible see my mother, my father, my brother, my best friends crying over my screams of pain but you can stop it, because nothing can make me smile. Just you.
I want to die. Please stop my pain. Please stop my tears. I love you more than everybody else.
I’m praying to God to stay with you with all my strength, I have implored to you to don’t give up of our love.
Please stay with me, I don’t know what more can I say, but I love you so so so deeply and I can’t breathe without you.
Let’s forget this stupid situation, let’s pass this test, because our love is so much stronger!
This is my love story. A dead love story if I don’t stay with you. So let’s be happy, let’s be what we were, my lover, my best friend, my everything, I can’t stop saying I love you, I can’t stop loving you, I can’t stop crying, I can’t stop being depressed untill you be with me again…
I’m sure you need me, if you don’t you weren’t thinking so much about this, I know you love me, I want make you happy, you know the right thing to do is being together. So please stop my pain, this heavy pain of my heart. I need you so much and we are so happy together, don’t let insignificant things ruin our love.